I haven't written a post in a few days, so wanted to keep myself accountable. Feel like I don't have much to mention, so I haven't posted. I guess there is more going on in my life than I think. Yesterday I decided to make a change for myself. Obviously, I don't have enough things going on in my life right now, so why not add some more. This is all personal change things that I am going to put into action.
1. I am not going to do any strength training for the rest of the week/weekend (6 days). This is an experiment I am doing with a group I am part of. This idea is that I need a WIN in my life right now. I have so many things going on that I need to see the scale move. I am at the frustrated point where I get past a certain spot, then back up, then down, then up. It is so frustrating! I watch what I eat, I workout...as you can see from my videos, and I strength train. I am going to do some cardio in these 6 days, as working out is a very mental stress relief process for me, but no strength training. The hope...the scale moves. If it does...awesome! I will see where I am next Monday and go from there.
2. Take a microscope to my food logging. I believe I am pretty good at this already, but I am going to be super anal about it the next 6 days and make sure I really am eating the amount of calories that I think I am eating. Let's see what happens. Am I really eating 1800 calories, when I think I am eating 1200? I will find out.
These are my changes for the next week. I still have a lot going on outside of this, but weight-loss wise, this is what I am going to try. I am not changing my eating, or anything like that, just examining my ability to be truthful to myself. I'll let you know how it went on Tuesday.
Today was just a WOD, so it didn't last too long. I did a 12 min AMRAP. So, in 12 minutes, I did as many rounds as I could of: 7 deadlifts (83lb), and 3 inch worms with a push up at the bottom. I got through 9 rounds and 9 reps. Felt good to workout. I managed to work out 6/7 days this week, which is awesome. Here is a sped up version of my workout from today.
Alright, I admit it. I HATE drinking water. It is sooo boring. The only time I want it is when I am working out and its about 90° outside. Otherwise, it is torture. There are days that I literally drink one coffee, and nothing else. How bad is that...BAD!! So...how do I increase my water consumption? Challenges and working out.
I know someone on facebook who started a weekend water challenge yesterday. Well, I managed to pull it together...somehow...and drink 1/2 my weight in ounces in water. SNAP that was a lot of water. I managed to get about 22oz when I was working out. That was easy because it was HOT and I felt like I was dying. My first mistake..I didn't start until about 2 pm at work. It's really hard to drink water in my work environment, so I tried my best. Come about 4:30 when I was done, I had drank about 10 ounces. I felt like I was doomed. Needless to say...I jumped on facebook, saw how far everyone else was, and almost gave up. When I got home, I worked out and that helped move me along to about 32 ounces. Whoohoo...I only had 58 to go. OMG that is a lot of water. After working out, I still couldn't get myself to drink it. So...I put some water in a bottle, walked to my soda stream, pressed the button that makes an awful noise, and voila...sparkling water. Over the next 5 hours, I managed to drink the remaining 58 ounces in sparkling water. There is something satisfying about it that makes it 100x better than regular water. I even added lemon to one or two glasses. I did about 12 ounces at a time, and each time I drank it, I logged it. I was so happy that I had actually done it by the end of the day, that I got to log on the poll in the facebook group that I succeeded. So that is how I got my water intake in. Now...day 2, the goal is different, but I am still trying to drink water. Today, I decided to try some regular water with cucumber. It is working so far, but I am only about 24 ounces in. I guess it is better than the days I drink no water at all.
Cheers to drinking more water for a healthier self!
Seems like an easy concept to grasp, however, have you ever thought you messed up so bad that you want to make yourself look good to others and lie and say you did something when you didn't? I have. But I ask you this...who cares? It really isn't that big of a deal. If you mess up and own up to it, then you are more likely to not want to feel that guilt again and not do it next time. If you lie, no-one else actually knows you messed up and you just feel guilty internally for a little bit. That doesn't help anyone.
So the goal for this week...for me too...is to NOT LIE. I am going to own up to my mistakes. Log it, deal with it. Tell your accountability buddy, and own up to it. Take ownership for what you messed up doing so someone can help you in the future.
I have an accountability buddy. This week, she messed up, and I messed up. We both did something we were trying not to do and knew it wasn't the best decision. We both owned up to it. We said...I messed up yesterday. The reaction was...let's do better today. So that is my takeaway from this. First don't lie to yourself. Log what you did and be ok with it. Move on. If you have an accountability buddy, tell them you need extra encouragement the next day because you messed up. If you don't have a buddy, find out. Feel free to reach out to me and I will be it. We all need someone to help us out. But our buddies don't know we need help, if we aren't honest with them.
So...honesty...and accountability. Own your mistakes. Rat yourself out. Move on the next day with some extra help from a buddy. Fee free to email me if you need a buddy!
Woke up early, before the sun even woke me up. It's been happening a few days a week for the past few weeks, but I am ok with it. Although, I am one of those 100% NOT A MORNING PERSON types. Before 10am, my energy level is low and I like quiet time. Those are the small things that are important to know. However, even though I want to be alone, I am learning to be productive with this morning time. Instead of lying in bed for an hour, I cuddle with the dog for maybe 15 minutes, and then get up. I am still sluggish, and quiet, but my brain is mentally awake. I don't know if it's because my dog no longer likes to cuddle for 2 hours and prefers 15 min max, or if I feel I have a purpose and some clarity in my life and am trying to put some thoughts into action. Either way, it's working.
Even though I am getting up and being productive...I still will NOT go work out this early in the AM. I have tried it numerous times, for numerous days, and it still isn't for me. While I feel productive for having gotten my workout in, my body hates it. My joints aren't happy, when I am done I am tired and want to take a nap, and if I can't fit a nap in, I am tired the entire day. I don't know if it is because I worked out after school in high school and in college and grad school worked out at like 10 or 11 pm, then passed out. My body greatly prefers late day workouts or mid day workouts. So instead of pushing myself to keep changing my habits to what everyone else says is best, screw it. I have learned over the past 32 years what my body likes, and AM workouts are NOT IT, and that is ok. :)
So I will be productive with my mind, while my body is still waking up and getting used to a vertical position. I hope everyone listens to their bodies and does what is best for them. We all know ourselves better than other people know us, so use that to your advantage and figure out what routines work and don't work for you. Don't let others change that. Feel free to try of course, but ultimately, you will figure out what you like.
The other day I had one of those days where I was not feeling like I am on the right path with life and like nothing was going right. I wasn't feeling well, I felt like I am not going to help anyone in my future work endeavors, it just wasn't a good day. I felt down for a little bit, let the pessimistic part of my brain take over, but at the same time I would intermittently have thoughts of realistic ness and logic pop in. Even with the logical thoughts popping into my head, I still went back and forth and decided it wasn't really a good day to try and work on a business plan. I sat in front of the couch, turned on "Flash" on Netflix, and escaped into the world of television. I have been so good at not watching television for the past 3 weeks, but it was one of those days where it was exactly what I needed. And don't think I just sat down for an episode or two. Oh no. I have an addictive personality. I sat down and watched 5 episodes. Now, even though I sat and watched TV, I didn't start binging on food, or anything like that. I just gave into my desire to accept that my brain wasn't in a great place and I escaped into a fantasy world. That is, until the episode collided with Arrow and another show...so of course I started watching Arrow in order to catch up in that world too.
Basically, it's ok for every day to not go as we expect it to. It's also ok to give into some parts of our minds desires. I knew that if I put TV on during my days off, I would be super unproductive. So I didn't...for 3 weeks...then I just couldn't fight it anymore. I accept that that is ok. It is what I needed. Today, my brain is in a much happier place and I am being super productive. If I had tried to push through the other day, I probably would not have gotten as far as I have today. So give in to those desires sometimes...it's ok. I also made cookies, and had beer. I hadn't had cookies in about 2 months, and it was time. I was smart about it, made a batch, ate 3 (instead of 6), and gave the rest to my fiancé to bring into work on Friday. I set a limit for myself, even though it was a rough day, and gave into temptations. The scale is back down today, and I'm happier. Really, that's all that matters, that we are happy. So give in, take risks, get back on track. It's ok to not be perfect. We are only human.
I could wasted my day away being on the computer, looking up people losing weight, working out, and eating right. But then I am just wasting my time and energy. There is a time and place for me to do that, as motivation and having others to talk to who are going through similar issues is important. However, at some point, I need to get off my ass and start doing something. I haven't worked out since Thursday, when I did two workouts in one day, and man am I being lazy. I need to get off this chair and do something.
In essence, get up and move people! I am done writing, it's time for me to go change and get my buttocks to the gym. Here goes nothing. It may not be the best workout since I don't feel like I have energy, but then again, maybe it will be an amazing workout. I won't know until I do it. So ya...let's do this.
- 20 jump rope (or single taps to a piece of wood)
- 20 mountain climbers
- 20 kettlebell swings
Feel free to watch part of the workout in a sped up way on my instagram account here.
It's really easy to get caught up in life, work, etc. However, it's all really important to make some time for yourself. Two weekends ago, I went online and booked a 90 min massage for today. When today came, I was really tired and didn't really want to go. I mean, who doesn't want to go get a massage for 90 minutes? I even napped for the hour before the massage, woke up all groggy, but still went. Once I was at the massage, I was really happy I did it. I felt like I had a little more energy, my body felt relaxed, and I didn't really realize how much I just needed an hour to relax and think about something else. Even if all I was thinking about is the area being massaged, haha. Anyways, the key to this blog post is just to make sure you set some time aside for yourself every once in a while. It is really important for your own sanity, mental health, and body, so stop putting it aside. As an EMT, one of the first things that is drilled into our brain is, "scene safety", or "safety first". We cannot help others on the scene of an accident if we are injured. That's why you never see an EMT or fireman running. We need to stay safe in order to help others. The same thing is the case in daily life. In order to help others, or be our best, we need to take some time for ourselves.
Try and set some time aside each week for yourself, that is my advice and takeaway today. Here is a picture of my "me space" today.
Today was my first day off of work this week. I have been filling in for someone at work and it has led to me having less time at home. While normally this isn't really a huge deal, this week it really hit me hard that I didn't really have any down time. Besides just being exhausted from working with only a 40 min break, I have gotten almost nothing done and spent a lot of time at the computer at night time.
I have so many things rushing through my small head (I actually do have a small head - size XS motorcycle helmet), that I am finding I don't really want to sit in front of the TV when I get home. My brain is so active, that I have been coming down to work on my computer every night this week. That is a huge shift for me. Today, since it was my first day off, was super productive. I watched some important videos, worked on some worksheets, chatted with a mentor, and got stuff rolling. That is so exciting for me. I feel like I am rejuvenated and ready to get things going in all aspect of my life...except working out.
I have been so bad about working out since I got home from Memorial Day weekend. I did good while I was traveling, but once I got home, I was so exhausted from filling in for my co-worker at work that I just didn't want to workout. Needless to say, today was the day that I got back on the wagon. I did a workout this morning, did 100 squats for a 30 day squat challenge, and in about an hour I am going to go row for 45 minutes. I was supposed to row yesterday, but I didn't, so I am making it up today since I have more free time today. I am not going to beat myself up about it, but just jump back into the routine as I can. That is the key. If I let every small thing I miss get me down, I will never get anywhere. So, I have to change my mindset. My new mindset says to take it one day at a time and do what I can. I am not going to beat myself up for not rowing yesterday, and for having 2 - or maybe 4 - Girl Scout cookies last night. I really hope we are almost out of them, as they are a serious weakness of mine. haha.
Anyways, keep putting one foot in front of the other and take it one day at a time. I didn't do great yesterday with exercising and I haven't done great all week with productivity, but today I made up for it all, and it feels good. So yay!
My name's Amanda and this is a blog about my story and my life. My hope is to motivate some of you to get going on your weight-loss journey as well as help people along the way. If you have questions about how to get started, or anything else, feel free to ask.