Down in the Dumps

The other day I had one of those days where I was not feeling like I am on the right path with life and like nothing was going right. I wasn't feeling well, I felt like I am not going to help anyone in my future work endeavors, it just wasn't a good day. I felt down for a little bit, let the pessimistic part of my brain take over, but at the same time I would intermittently have thoughts of realistic ness and logic pop in. Even with the logical thoughts popping into my head, I still went back and forth and decided it wasn't really a good day to try and work on a business plan. I sat in front of the couch, turned on "Flash" on Netflix, and escaped into the world of television. I have been so good at not watching television for the past 3 weeks, but it was one of those days where it was exactly what I needed. And don't think I just sat down for an episode or two. Oh no. I have an addictive personality. I sat down and watched 5 episodes. Now, even though I sat and watched TV, I didn't start binging on food, or anything like that. I just gave into my desire to accept that my brain wasn't in a great place and I escaped into a fantasy world. That is, until the episode collided with Arrow and another show...so of course I started watching Arrow in order to catch up in that world too. 

Basically, it's ok for every day to not go as we expect it to. It's also ok to give into some parts of our minds desires. I knew that if I put TV on during my days off, I would be super unproductive. So I didn't...for 3 weeks...then I just couldn't fight it anymore. I accept that that is ok. It is what I needed. Today, my brain is in a much happier place and I am being super productive. If I had tried to push through the other day, I probably would not have gotten as far as I have today. So give in to those desires sometimes...it's ok. I also made cookies, and had beer. I hadn't had cookies in about 2 months, and it was time. I was smart about it, made a batch, ate 3 (instead of 6), and gave the rest to my fiancé to bring into work on Friday. I set a limit for myself, even though it was a rough day, and gave into temptations. The scale is back down today, and I'm happier. Really, that's all that matters, that we are happy. So give in, take risks, get back on track. It's ok to not be perfect. We are only human.